Standing on my porch, waving my kids and grandkids away
after dinner here last weekend, I had a most enormous rush of smiles. Glowing like a lighthouse, I watched them all the way down the street I call
Transcendental Avenue. I had had a hell of a week of push and shove,
crowned with two days and nights with the munchikins, and at that moment I
was very tired and very satisfied, filled with payback for my efforts, and beaming.
Everyone had such a good time, so much fun. That is why I do these things – the
reward is so SATISFYING!
I got to thinking about the term, how it is a specific kind
of happiness. The feeling is unique for me in that involves a direct reward –
usually for energy well spent, but it could also be for having understood something
correctly, or choosing the right turn of phrase, or making a beautiful thing –
perhaps augmented by effort? Or perhaps not. . .
The dictionary defines it prosaically as “meeting a need,”
(hard not to think of the Rolling Stones) and Wikepedia catalogues a bunch of uses
for the word:
•Contentment
•Computer user satisfaction
•Customer satisfaction
•Job satisfaction
•Satisfaction theory of atonement, a Christian view of salvation
•The regaining of honour in a duel
•The process or outcome of assigning values to the free variables of
a satisfiable formula
•Satisfaction of legacies, a doctrine of fulfilling a legacy during
the testator's lifetime.
•Accord and satisfaction, a contract law
concept about the purchase of the release from a debt obligation
But none of these describe the feeling I had. I decided to look up what others have
said about satisfaction, and I was stunned – and sometimes confused – by the
variety:
― George Bernard Shaw, Overruled
Whoa. That man must have been trouble to live with. But closer to my own understanding:
“For me, Art is the restoration of order. It may discuss all sort of terrible things, but there must be satisfaction at the end. A little bit of hunger, but also satisfaction.”
― Toni Morrison
“Happiness is not a goal...it's a by-product of a life well lived.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt
Whoa. That man must have been trouble to live with. But closer to my own understanding:
― Toni Morrison
And finally and a little elliptically, a woman after my own
heart:
“Satisfactions are what keep me going.
They are moments of satori; extreme joy from the realization of a job well
done: a child well loved, a day well lived, an investment worth all the energy
I spent. Like rationalizations, I can hardly go a day without them. The things
that cause me to feel satisfied are beacons of my own true nature and therefore
light my path forward.”
– Me